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I'm ending this journal. It's pretty much dead.. No one reads it or comments me anymore.
I may make another one. I'm not sure. We'll see. If I do, I'll post for those who care.
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[09 Mar 2007|09:17pm] |
Well, not much has happened recently. Jessi came to visit me, other than that.. things are pretty ordinary. I started my new job, and I hate it. I don't hate it more than I hated living in Perry though, so I suppose thats a good thing.
I'm not sure why I biother writing anymore.. but.. oh well..
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| Survey |
[15 Jan 2007|10:59pm] |
ARE YOU
1. A Cuddler? Yes.
2. A morning person? Not really.. but I like the mornings :]
4. Religious? No.
5. In your pajamas? Half-way.
6. Left handed? Nope.
LAST
1. Friend you saw? Jordan.
2. Person you talk to on the phone? Jess.. she is on her way back with Curtis!
3. Message over MySpace: Don't remember.
4. Wore: Green shirt, and comfy pants.
5. Was today better than yesterday? No.
FAVORITE
1. Number: 4, 7, 17
2. Color: Purple, Green, and Pink.
3. Season: Winter or Fall.
QUESTIONS & ANSWERS
Q: What was the first thing you did this morning?
A: Kiss Jordan.
Q: Last thing you ate:
A: Soup.. It was icky..
Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
A: Yes. Cramps.
Q: What's the last movie you watched?
A: Children of Men
Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: Publix.
Q: Do you smile often?:
A: A lot more now than I used to.
Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: Always.
Q: Are you a friendly person?:
A: Usually.
Q: Where did you sleep last night?:
A: In My Bed.
Q: What color shirt are you wearing?:
A: Green.
Q: When was the last time you cried?
A: Earlier.
Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
A: I don't remember.
Q: What are you about to do?
A: Most likely cuddle with Jordi :D
Q: Rate life as of right now 1-10?
A: 8.
Q: What do you hear right now?
A: The tv. News. There is a rapist on the loose in Gainesville.
Q: If you could drink anything right this second, what would it be?
A: Hmmm.
Q: Anything hurt on your body right now?
A: My Uterus.. It's Screaming!
Q: What's your favorite month?
A: Not sure.
Q: What was your elementary schools mascot?
A: Bulldog.
Q: What’s your favorite bottled water?
A: Dasani
Q: What are you doing at 9 pm tonight?
A: Cuddled up to Jordan, in pain.
Q: What’s your favorite Starbucks drink?
A: None.
Q: Did you attend your high school homecoming?
A: Nope.
Q: Did you go to someone else's homecoming?
A: Nope.
Q: Do you prefer coffee or tea?
A: Both.
Q: Something red within 5 feet of you?
A: Jordans shirt.
Q: Least favorite color?
A: Yellow.
Q: Favorite kind of pizza?
A: Pepperoni
Q: Ever had Dippin Dots?
A: Yes.
Q: Ever make fun of a homeless person?
A: No.
Q: At what age do you want to get married?
A: Never.
Q: How many kids do you have/want?
A: None, unless I can sell them on the black market.
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| Errr.. Myspace won't let me post blogs! |
[10 Jan 2007|06:03pm] |
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I'm not feeling so well today. I don't know what's up.
I went to my job interview, it went well. There wasn't a store manger available to do the second part of my interview, so I'm going back on Friday, I think. Mike is supposed to call and let me know tomorrow. It seems promising.
Just finished watching Gilmore Girls. I can't wait until the 26th, I think that's when new ones start! I'm excited to see what's going to happen with Lorelai, Christopher, and Luke. Hmmm.
I'd call my mom again, but I've already called her 4 times :) I miss her.
I've gotta find something to eat tonight. Looks like it's going between oatmeal and Ramen. omg, I just remembered! The guy who created Ramen died yesterday. I also founf out they have Ramen muesem in Japan. Weird, eh? lol.
Anyways.. I'm gonna go..
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| Errr.. Myspace won |
[10 Jan 2007|06:03pm] |
I'm not feeling so well today. I don't know what's up.
I went to my job interview, it went well. There wasn't a store manger available to do the second part of my interview, so I'm going back on Friday, I think. Mike is supposed to call and let me know tomorrow. It seems promising.
Just finished watching Gilmore Girls. I can't wait until the 26th, I think that's when new ones start! I'm excited to see what's going to happen with Lorelai, Christopher, and Luke. Hmmm.
I'd call my mom again, but I've already called her 4 times :) I miss her.
I've gotta find something to eat tonight. Looks like it's going between oatmeal and Ramen. omg, I just remembered! The guy who created Ramen died yesterday. I also founf out they have Ramen muesem in Japan. Weird, eh? lol.
Anyways.. I'm gonna go..
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| A valentine letter. |
[28 Dec 2006|01:58pm] |
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"Black liner run", SWR |
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|  | Dear Cupid,
This year, I've had my ups and downs in the love department.
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I slept with Ziggygurl and all I got was this lousy meme.
Digitizedeyes bought me a dildo then creepily winked at me.
In order to pay for school I sold myself on eBay to Toasterporn. |
So as you can see it's been a hectic year. Can you please make Toasterporn hook up with me this Valentine's day?
Sincerely,
ixfallxapart |
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| Just something I needed to say.. |
[24 Dec 2006|01:53am] |
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My father will not leave me alone about getting a student loan. I don't think he gets it. It's not like that's an easy thing. I don't want to start life in debt, although, I'm already in enough debt to my family.
Everything keeps getting worse, but you know what? There are more important things in this life. Hell, life is more important. Try watching someone go through the pain of finding out that they have cancer, and a 25-30% chance of living... When, if they would have caught it a year ago when they should have, he'd be fine now.
Watching someone who is potentially dying can put a lot into prespective. Who cares if you're having trouble with your boyfriend, or if you think that your parents hate you. That doesn't matter.
All of the pointless blogs I've written about my financial situation, and my petty problems with my friends and my family.. that's just what it is.. pointless. I'm not saying that problems aren't problems.. but come on, it not like you're dying, now are you?
It's Christmas, and people are supposed to be happy. People are supposed to be optomistic.. and yet, all I see around me is pain and misfortune.
Things are just way too important *cough* petty *cough* to even realize that all of us have things to be thankful for..
I don't know about you, but I've learned a lot.
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| Yeah, things HAD gotten better.. |
[22 Dec 2006|01:51am] |
I got my notice about the loss of my financial aid, and my academic probation. I guess the actual written notices from the school were the last thing I could take.. I spent a little while crying. I know that helps nothing, but I'm also pms'ing, and all that stuff. It's like Perry is the new vodka for me.
I had hopes of getting out of the house tonight, but I can't seem to find anyone to get out of the house with. Everyone has plans, or something along those lines. I may just end up driving around town by myself again. Sitting at the park for a bit.. just something to keep my mind off of everything that's been going on.
Looks like more of the oc.. I'm almost done with the 2nd season.. That's all I've been doing this christmas break.. anyways..
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| Where is your heart? |
[11 Dec 2006|07:53pm] |
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I don't believe
In the smile that you leave
When you walk away
And say goodbye
Well I don't expect
The world to move underneath me
But for God's sake
Could you try?
I know that you're true to me
You're always there
You say you care
I know that you want to be mine
Where is your heart?
'Cause I don't really feel you
Where is your heart?
What I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard
To give me what I need?
I want your heart to bleed
That's all I'm asking for
Oh, where is your heart?
I don't understand
Your love is so cold
It's always me that's reaching out
For your hand
And I've always dreamed
That love would be effortless
Like a petal fallin' to the ground
A dreamer followin' his dream
Where is your heart?
'Cause I don't really feel you
Where is your heart?
What I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard
To give me what I need?
I want your heart to bleed
And that's all I'm asking for
Oh, where is your heart?
It seems so much is left unsaid
So much is left unsaid
But you can say anything
Oh, anytime you need
Baby, it's just you and me
Oh yeah
I know that you're true to me
You're always there
You say you care
I know that you want to be mine
Where is your heart?
'Cause I don't really feel you
Where is your heart?
What I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard
To give me what I need?
I want your heart to bleed
That's all I'm asking for
Oh yeah
Where is your heart?
'Cause I don't really feel you
Where is your heart?
What I really want is to believe you
Is it so hard
To give me what I need?
I want your heart to bleed
And that's all I'm asking for
Where is your heart?
Where is your heart?
Where is your heart?
Where is your heart?
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[29 Aug 2006|03:01pm] |
Grah.....
I want something that i know I shouldn't want..
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| Place your bets. |
[27 Jul 2006|11:20am] |
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I haven't wrriten in jesus ages.
There really isn't much to say. I'm a lot closer to moving.. 13 days! My orientation is Friday. As soon as we get back into town, my mom is packing the car up and going to New Orleans, and when she gets back, it's moving time for Sara. I'm really gonna miss my mommy. She's my best friend. I love how I can tell her anything, and she can even tell me anything. I guess I've reached an age where my mother has become my friend. I love it, I wouldn't ask for it any other way.
A lot of things have been going on, but I'd rather not talk about it. Its only going to cause a big fuss and I'm rather sick of the disputes.
I need to update more, as I will later.
Good news, No hangover :]
I love you guys.
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[06 Jul 2006|05:15pm] |
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A huge rant to come later.
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| YAY |
[20 Jun 2006|06:09pm] |
I'm LEGAL!
Today's be Sara's 18th birthday. and no, I don't feel any older... I'm just.. old!
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| So whens's the last time that you felt alive? |
[04 Jun 2006|11:36am] |
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These last couple of days have been wonderful. I don't have one complaint. Okay, Yeah, I do. My insurance was cut off. RAWR.
Friday Jess and I met up with Ricky, Jordan, and Al. We ran around town with them. They ran into Sherry (This new chick who moved into town) and invited her to hang with us. She's not that bad. We all ended up at the park. All meaning Me, Jess, Jordan, Al, Ricky, Sherry, Heath, Jane, Jason, Mercedes, Beth, and Garret. It was an interesting time.
Then the normal crew headed back to my house to watch Rules Of Attraction. After that we went out to the star watching spot, and then called it a night.
Last night Jess and I met Ricky and Jordan up in Talli. Ate at this lovely little Indian resturaunt. Went to the hookah bar. Ever had anyone blow smoke into your mouth? It can be cool. After that we went to Lake Ella and waked around. It was nice. Jordan tried to get me to dance with him, but I don't dance. Grah! Now that I think about it, I should have fucking danced.
Those were the past two days.
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| Wow. |
[30 May 2006|09:55pm] |
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I think I'm going to Gainesville. The more I think about it, The more excited I become.
SFCC here I come? Maybe.
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| I'm graduating!!!!! |
[20 May 2006|07:35am] |
Omg you guys.... in less then an hour and a half im gonna be graduating. I looks adoarble in what im going to wear under my cap and gown. although, my gown is too big... so yeah :( Oh well. Who cares.
I'm graduating!!!!!
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[07 May 2006|12:49am] |
You know, All of this time, I've never thought myself to be selfish... but I realize that I'm the most selfish person I know..
I'm sorry.
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[28 Apr 2006|03:03pm] |
I need some change.
New layout coming soon.
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| How can I feel this way if I can't have you? |
[19 Apr 2006|04:21pm] |
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Sweet Jesus. I don't really know what to think anymore. Last night I cried. I cried and I cried, til there were no more tears to cry. One month til I graduate high school. One month. This is insane. I'm still not ready for this, and it keeps coming faster. Prom is Friday, and I keep biting my moms head off over my hair, and how I'm going to look insanely bad. I just know I am. I don't know why I'm yelling at my mom about this, but I can't help it. Lately I've had a horrible temper, and I've picked up some horrible habits that I'm honestly too ashamed to admit.
Last night My mom, My brother, and I just sat in the living room and talked for maybe 30 minutes. I told my mom that sometimes I really don't want to be here, and I sometimes feel like I'd be better off (along with everyone else) if I were to just die. I've lost my faith in everything. It's just gone. I don't know what to do.
I've become a horrible person. I've become everything that I swore I wouldn't be. There you go guys, picture perfect innocence is no more. I hope you're happy, I'm normal now.
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